Ramblings...

I wonder if he exists because when i dance in the rain by myself sometimes i think i see him in my dreams that i remember the ones that come to mind out of the blue night hours that you just lay awake thinking and now... now i just want to find him or maybe I just want him to find me - is that it? many times I thought so but the only thing i have now is the dream of his being... the dream or maybe its just hope.. a hope of his existence a hope for something more than this

something like happiness