When...

I remember the moment it all changed...

I remember the very moment I knew that there was no turning back if I went past that point..... If I didn't just stop.
And I didn't stop.
In fact, I took a flying leap off the edge, because I saw you waiting to catch me below.
And then I woke up.
You weren't there anymore.
Were you even there to begin with?
Or was I sleepwalking all along?
Now it's time for me to crash and burn alone... How did I get here?
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The moment...

It was the kiss.
The moment we hold our breaths for.
The moment that changes it all... sucks you in.
I can't even begin to describe....
The moon shone down on us. So did the smiles of people getting on and off of the shuttlebus.
The fields shimmered in blue glowing moonlight outside of the big movie screen window.
The colors of the wind swept through the moon roof of the moving bus.
They danced through our hair.... and swept across our skin.
I couldn't hear the other passengers.
I couldn't hear the loud motor of the bus...
Only your heartbeat that was pounding into me,
pulsing through me.
I couldn't feel the twists and turns the bus was making.
I couldn't feel the cold of the night sweeping over us...
Only your warm embrace that held me in place,
close to you.
And then it happened. You moved into it before I could.
Our eyes locked.
Your heart stopped..
So did mine
along with time.
Maybe I noticed, maybe I didn't. I was too busy drowning in your eyes.
And that's the moment you took me half by surprise.
I know I was thinking about it. I know I wanted to... but I didn't expect it.
And then you did.
I waited for you to breath me in.
And themoment I tasted just a piece of your soul...
Was the moment I knew there was no turning back.
I was hooked.
More than just addicted...
I knew very well that I could live without you.
I also knew very well that my heart would break if I ever had to.
Forever after that moment, I knew the piece missing needed to make my heart beat again, would be you.
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Now...

I would do it all over again.
No pain could ever change that.
But that doesn't seem to make you any less gone....