I am so tangled up inside...my life is just repeats and cycles. I know it was all worth it before, but in the end I was just alone. Do I want that now? Maybe he might do the same thing. Can I really take his word? I'm afraid he'll get to know me and see that I'm nothing special... and then just get sick of me. Do I really want to be by myself in the end... can I even handle it?
My chest swells up and burns when I hold back the tears, but I know I have to be strong. I know that's the mistake I made last time... I don't think I can afford it again.

Maybe I'm just too freakin paranoid. I'm such a girl.